Battling a sinus attack and irritatingly jabbering a mind, I was looking at giving today’s entry a miss, when a post on how we judge people knocked something within.
Ever since I can remember, I’ve been called names or at least bestowed with ample adjectives. A private person; an intense person; a high-strung individual… The latest is that I am a simple person.
I lay my thoughts bare on this blog ‘Uncensored’. My Toastmasters speeches are laden with my shameful incidents. My book ‘Anamica’ is an autobiographical novel. And yet I’m called a ‘private person’, presumably because I don’t roll-over and laugh and walk around talking ninteen to a dozen with all and sundry, making my presence felt.
I am one person most colleagues have said they are comfortable working with. I make it a point to visit all my friends staying within my reach at least once in two months; call those who are far away at least once a month; visit all my relations on my hometown visits even if it is at the cost of re-scheduling and cancelling my assignments…yet I’m called a ‘high-strung’ individual.
I cannot hold myself at the slightest of jokes and cannot laugh without holding a tissue to my eyes and nose, and yet I’m called an ‘intense’ person.
Now the latest on the list of my descriptions is that I am a ‘simple’ person. Well, flashy dresses and dramatic make-up is not for me. This is one adjective I would love to retain with my name, for the ‘simple’ reason that it has helped me crack my mental Sudoku.
Decoding the ‘simple-ness’, I believe it is a matter of the heart. I trust people easily. And, therefore, I suffer easily.
This is also one of the main reasons, I now understand, for my sinus attacks and frustrations.
All those who have named me thus far – friends, relations, acquaintances, colleagues and foes – a Big Thank You!
“My heart is no more a garbage bin! My self-worth is not for public voting! Any more.
I hope my doctor reads this announcement. She would be pleased I took heed of her advice.
PS: Has name-calling helped you look within? Helped you become a better person?